"....alone?!"

Well, I never made it to the farmer's market like I wanted.

By the time I got out of the shower and ate and cleaned up and got dressed, etc, it was already almost 1:30 and the market closes at 2. I didnt feel like driving like a crazy person to get there and running through the market like a crazy person before everything closed..

But luckily I didnt, because Tarah came home for a bit so that is always nice :)

As we were sharing stories about the past week's goings-on, mom asked, did you see Jessica's pumpkin outside?

"you carved pumpkins?" yeah...

"alone?!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA!

I havent laughed so hard in a WHILE...

but not because that is a preposterous question; it's hilarious because its actually an extremely valid question!

I do a lot by myself (like the bike ride this morning) and I have never had a problem with it; I dont really feel like Im alone (.....and not because of my imaginary friends - ha!)

Usually if I do something alone, I encounter others to talk to, or at least to say hello to, ...or watch others and am entertained, therefore not bored.

However, lately, I have been feeling legitimately alone.

A lot of my great friends have moved away (or were always in another city to begin with), and most of the others are too involved with their significant others to want to do anything.

(not to sound like a debbie-downer...)

And, though I love doing things alone, I like to have that choice (who doesnt?!), not feel forced because no one else is available.....

I've always been really against online dating (for myself) because I didnt think I would have to "resort" to that ...and because I didnt want that to be the "story" when people asked how we met (which, I know is silly).

But, SO many people I know have recently been taking the online dating route and have been successful!

I think a lot of it is feeling lost, not having a job, no money to do anything, living at home.... but you know? maybe it's worth a shot...

(even though I HATE the "what do you do? where do you live? whats your dream job?" questions at the beginning, and the "do you have siblings? what do your parents do?" small talk... UGH!)

"Speaking of" the bike ride......

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man, that bike ride felt great! It ended up being 10 miles according to mapmyrun.com.

even though it was hard, and long, .....uh, I mean.... (that's what she said!), I feel so accomplished.

But I also feel really tired! and never-endingly hungry...

that's the only downside of long workouts.

I am hoping it's just because Im not used to it and that (hopefully) eventually when I do get accustomed to the rigorous-ness of those kinds of workouts, it wont leave me so wiped out!

It doesn't help that Im cold and bundled in my bed...and keep sinking lower and lower in the pillows.

Time for a snack! maybe yogurt "parfait..."